Brian recently wrote about why he is a consistent and good blogger. I, on the other hand, had never written a blog till about two months ago. Working for Marc has forced me into this entire new realm of words and thoughts. To be honest, I’m not comfortable here and am still learning the ropes, trying to find my way around. After reading Brian’s post, I was reassured that some of the things I have been thinking were not unique to myself and wanted to write a post for those of you who may want to blog, but feel hesitant. The difficulty for me is three fold:
- Feeling like I don’t have anything to say. As I began to read different posts (and there is not shortage of people writing) I felt like everything I wanted to write about was already being said, and was being said better than I could put it myself. You can find a blog for pretty much anything you want. I wasn’t sure that I had anything to contribute to the literally millions of conversations going on.
- Fear that what I type would be shredded/ridiculed by those able to write/argue more readily than myself. Welcome to the world of Academic Theologizing. You needed to be able to articulate what you think, and then be just as able to back it up. I thought that when I blogged I was stepping into the boxing ring with thousands of other fighters who were more learned and experienced than I was and would quickly tear down any arguments or views I would take. I didn’t want to be treated like Arius!
- Time! I honestly thought, “Who has time for this stuff?” I am not a fast writer. It takes me hours to get my thoughts out sometimes. I saw no way that I could engage meaningfully or consistently in this community.
However, what I’ve learned is also three fold:
- I don’t know if I have anything worthwhile to say until I say it sometimes. I know Proverbs says that it’s better to have others consider you a fool, than to open your mouth and remove all doubt, but I need to get things out. I’ve found that blogging is helping me to process my thoughts just like Brian said in his previous post. In this sense, blogging is starting to become more about what it helps me to process through, than how it contributes to others.
- If I am shredded by someone who argues better than me, it doesn’t mean that they have a better argument, it may mean that I just need to man UP, think more critically about my response, and take another shot. If I can’t defend coherently what I’m saying, I don’t need to be saying it. (Read this quote by Austin Farrer) I’ve also found that when I blog, I don’t always agree with what I write. Listening to myself through the avenue of writing, and listening to what others have to say when they push back, has been invaluable. The trick here is being humble enough to accept criticism when you’re wrong and bold enough to assert truth when you’re right.
- I have to make time! This is where Brian hit the nail on the head. Writing my thoughts out helps me process them and is making me a better writer. Writing has never been my strong point and the ironic thing about writing, is that the only way to get better at it is simply to do it. So, I’m slowly becoming better at writing (and if you’ve found grammar errors in this blog you know how slow it is) and I’m also writing faster.
If I think of other things that might help timid bloggers like myself, I’ll post them as they come up.